I have been writing about writing about the Vandenbergs for more than a year and a half. I have been so many different people in that time! And I've only produced an outline and the first few paragraphs of text, which involve a person opening an invitation and then showing it to another person who a) says they should go and then b) thinks about some memories. One thing remains: I aspire to be Chamomile Vandenberg. She's everything I can't express.

Look at this person I used to be, wondering about the Vandenbergs. Photo by Emma Mead.